The Stephanie Plum in me (Dont tell me what to do)

I needed a place to vent. Somewhere new, so I made another journal. I'm so frustrated. So much coming at me. One of the people I like to share things with other than my brother is Paul. Junior is easy to talk to. He understands, he's been there. So he just listens and has my back. But Paul on the other hand, likes to tell me what I need to do. Now I love him and I know he is only trying to help but I don't need anyone else telling me what I need to do. I didn't survive this long, gotten thru what I have, and gotten where I am by listening to what other peoples opinions of what they think I should do. Now, here's the thing. I'm free. And he is locked up. So obviously I know a thing or two about what I should and shouldn't do. And its pretty clear that he doesn't know as much as he think he does or he doesn't have the best methods of going about things or he wouldn't be where he is. And the few times I have listened to him and his little ideas of what I should do, I ended up in a mess, when I should have just went with my gut to begin with. I mean come on. This is my life, I have to live it. He's locked up and as much as I love him, he cant do anything to help me from where he is. So therefore, the last thing I need for him to do when I talk to him on the phone is to tell me what I need to do. What I need is someone to listen and to help cheer me up and help take my mind off of things. I just really needed to get that out. I so wanted to tell him "Stop telling me what I need to do" but all that would have done is start an argument and that's the last thing I need. So I decided to make a journal to get this off my chest. I'm already starting to feel better. And wait, did he just yell for me to turn my computer sound down. He's lucky he wasn't next to me because I would have taken something and thrown it at his head. That would be the Stephanie Plum coming out in me. :) She doesn't like for Morelli to tell her what to do, and I'm the same way. The last thing for you to do is tell Stephanie she cant or shouldn't do something, cuz guess what? She is going to do exactly what you told her not to do. And I'm a lot like that too. Very stubborn and I don't take well to people telling me what to do. And I don't know if its just the culmination of everything that has happen this week, and I've just had it up to here, (plus I haven't had my nap) or if its a sign that my period is on its way (so not good), but either way. I just pretty much want to be left alone by most people. Because people talking to me right now is just not going well. So, I feel like the conversation could have gone so much better if he hadn't annoyed the crap out of me half the conversation. One good thing about having someone who you don't hear from a lot is if they start to get on your nerves, you get a long break from them, so by the time you hear from them again you have more than calmed down and you love them again, lol. Whatever, I'm calling this day a wash and starting over again tomorrow. You know the crazy thing is? I don't think Paul even noticed that I was annoyed. At all! So I'm either a good freaking actress, or he is just plain oblivious, who knows. Good thing though, because I really didn't feel like trying to explain what's wrong with me. Ok so...now that this rant is over with, I can throw all of these thoughts and feelings into the river. This train is leaving the station.