Stop Frustrating Me!
Wow. Here we go again. Frustration. Ok, where to begin? Second day in a row Paul is getting on my nerves. I don't know what it is. Maybe its because that time of the month is coming soon and I'm just on edge the reason my reactions are so severe, but I know its not only me. So here's what happens? I got my plate, getting ready to eat. Sub Sand-which and a bag of plain lays potato chips. Laid out all nicely on my plate, and a cup of Tahitian treat punch. My cellphone rings, and its him again. Now he is asking me how I feel about coming for a visit. Ok, I have been thru so much already to come and visit him. Going from being nervous, frustrated, cant sleep, having to talk to people I don't know and getting in cars with strangers, standing on the corner looking crazy, waiting on someone to pick me up and they never came, to getting my brothers friend to drive me up to the mall to meet some lady who I never saw there, and being told by mall security that we had to leave. I was home on Christmas morning crying. I mean seriously I don't think he has any idea how much I have been thru for him and all of a sudden he pops up asking if I wanna come visit again. He already knows I don't like to talk to strangers, specially not just hopping in the car with them. Then I have to try to explain to them how to get here. He always telling me all you have to do is this and all you have to do is that. Meanwhile I'm out here stressing out and struggling while he sits back all cool calm and collected while he waits on me to show up. This is not fair and I'm tired of it.
I'm going thru so much right now. I really don't need this on my plate right now. I feel like he asks so much of me, and because I love him I want to give him whatever he wants but I'm not getting what I need right now. I'm tired, frustrated, fed up and just don't want to be bothered right now. Sigh. I just want to enjoy my weekend. Can I enjoy my freaking weekend please? Specially after the horrible week I had. Ugh! I just needed to get that off my chest. So maybe now I can move on and just enjoy the rest of my day. Earlier today I watched "Bait Cars". Love that show! Then I watched "I Dream of Nene", and now I'm watching "The new Atlanta". Played my favorite Facebook games. Still not down playing Criminal Case. I'm addicted to that game. I had a pancake and 2 pieces of bacon for breakfast. A donut stick, and a chocolate covered ice cream with vanilla inside on a stick for lunch, and we already know what I had for dinner. We got a little rain today. My pen-pal Tea finally got the letter and $15 I mailed her for the pens she sent me. I just need to find away to release this frustration so I can find my happy place. Dropping this off at the Rant River and this train is leaving the station.
Wow. Here we go again. Frustration. Ok, where to begin? Second day in a row Paul is getting on my nerves. I don't know what it is. Maybe its because that time of the month is coming soon and I'm just on edge the reason my reactions are so severe, but I know its not only me. So here's what happens? I got my plate, getting ready to eat. Sub Sand-which and a bag of plain lays potato chips. Laid out all nicely on my plate, and a cup of Tahitian treat punch. My cellphone rings, and its him again. Now he is asking me how I feel about coming for a visit. Ok, I have been thru so much already to come and visit him. Going from being nervous, frustrated, cant sleep, having to talk to people I don't know and getting in cars with strangers, standing on the corner looking crazy, waiting on someone to pick me up and they never came, to getting my brothers friend to drive me up to the mall to meet some lady who I never saw there, and being told by mall security that we had to leave. I was home on Christmas morning crying. I mean seriously I don't think he has any idea how much I have been thru for him and all of a sudden he pops up asking if I wanna come visit again. He already knows I don't like to talk to strangers, specially not just hopping in the car with them. Then I have to try to explain to them how to get here. He always telling me all you have to do is this and all you have to do is that. Meanwhile I'm out here stressing out and struggling while he sits back all cool calm and collected while he waits on me to show up. This is not fair and I'm tired of it. 
I'm going thru so much right now. I really don't need this on my plate right now. I feel like he asks so much of me, and because I love him I want to give him whatever he wants but I'm not getting what I need right now. I'm tired, frustrated, fed up and just don't want to be bothered right now. Sigh. I just want to enjoy my weekend. Can I enjoy my freaking weekend please? Specially after the horrible week I had. Ugh! I just needed to get that off my chest. So maybe now I can move on and just enjoy the rest of my day. Earlier today I watched "Bait Cars". Love that show! Then I watched "I Dream of Nene", and now I'm watching "The new Atlanta". Played my favorite Facebook games. Still not down playing Criminal Case. I'm addicted to that game. I had a pancake and 2 pieces of bacon for breakfast. A donut stick, and a chocolate covered ice cream with vanilla inside on a stick for lunch, and we already know what I had for dinner. We got a little rain today. My pen-pal Tea finally got the letter and $15 I mailed her for the pens she sent me. I just need to find away to release this frustration so I can find my happy place. Dropping this off at the Rant River and this train is leaving the station.
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